I read the post, and IMO it has nothing to do with software engineering. It doesn’t state a problem you want to solve. It doesn’t state what you want help with. It is unanswerable and therefore not suitable for this site. It doesn’t give any benefit to readers and therefore can be removed.
Deleting a question is not bullying. If you think it is, then you are not going to succeed with anything in life. It is also not rude. Accusing moderators of being bullying and rude, on the other side, that is rude.
Now, what will help you in most situations is a simple strategy of finding the answer to two questions: What do I want to achieve? And how do I achieve it? Answer the first question. Nobody can help you with that. Then “workplace” might be a good place to get help with the second question.