I wrote a quite long, specific question about my experiences about programming, is it acceptable here? I'm searching for the appropriate forum for a long time now. Is there any of them fitting my text linked below?
No - career advice is not on-topic here and it will get closed. This kind of question is very unique to you and not generally helpful to the broader community of software developers. I'm not sure how active it is now, but perhaps you could jump into the Programmers chat room, The Whiteboard. It's usually active during the weekdays in the US, but it is a holiday week this week.